One Year Anniversary

Today is me and Victor’s one year anniversary.

So much has changed in a year. I’ve changed. Or rather, I’m becoming me again. I’m living in Texas now and I’m happier than I’ve ever been. I feel so lucky to have Victor.

Things aren’t perfect here, but my life with him is so much better.

And I love him so very much. He’s my everything. I’d do anything for him. I’m looking forward to spending the rest of my life with him. He’s amazing. I couldn’t ask for a better man.


Living in San Antonio

Sorry it has been such a long time since I last posted.

I’m living in San Antonio now!

I have been here for over a month and I love it. 

We’re currently looking for another place to rent. The landlord called Victor a few weeks ago to tell him that he’s selling the place. We’ve got to find a place before August. So, we’re a bit stressed about that.

Victor took me to see Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2 after it came out. It was great. I loved it.

I’m looking for more ways to make money from home. Hope I find some soon.

In July I will be going to see One Ok Rock in concert. I am so excited. Already bought the tickets. Cameras are allowed at the concert so I’ll be taking pictures.

Besides the stress of trying to find a new place, things have been good. I am happy here with Victor. 

Picture of us from last month.

Finally A Date!

I’ve got most of my stuff packed now. I’ve just got a few more things left to pack like my stereo and my guitar, but I still need to find a box big enough to pack that in.

I finally know when I’m moving: April 4!

I’ve known since February 24, but haven’t had the chance to get on here and blog about it. I’ve already booked my flight. So, April 4 I will be taking a plane to San Antonio to start my new life with Victor! I’m so excited. Not too much longer and I will be with the love of my life.

But I’m going to have to leave Shana here with my mom. Delta and the other airlines I checked into don’t allow hamsters in cabin, only cats, dogs, and birds. I’m sad I’m gonna have to leave her here.

April 1 all my items on my online store will be put on hold until I can get them shipped to San Antonio. But there is still a month to buy any of my items.

I am so looking forward to finally being with Victor. I miss him so much. It was hard for me to come back here after visiting him, but finally, I will be with him soon.

And our anniversary is in May. We’ll be together for one year and I’m happy we can spend it together.

This past year there have been so many changes. And some really, really rough times. But this is honestly the happiest I’ve ever been. My new life will be starting soon and I am with the most amazing man.

I hope you all are well. I will try to post again before I move.


Some boxes in my room of stuff I’ve packed. Still packing. I’ve mainly just got my CDs and books to pack yet. And the rest of my craft supplies and items I’ve made.

Not everything is getting shipped right away. I’m just focusing on getting my clothes and other important stuff there. The rest will be shipped later.

Can’t believe February is almost here. The time is quickly approaching for me to move. And I am honestly so excited.

It will be a new start and I will be with the love of my life.

Figured I’d share a new picture of Victor 🙂

Quick Post Before Bed

It’s the new year and I have a lot to look forward to this year. But the past few days have been stressful.

Victor’s lease is up in March and he was planning on using his tax return to rent a new place so I can move there. Well, unexpected vehicle problems, which cost quite a bit, might delay my moving there. And I have to say that has had me really down over the past few days.

I want to be with Victor. I’d give anything to be with him right now. I don’t want to be in Pennsylvania any longer than I have to be. I am so unhappy here. And I don’t want to keep waiting to start my life.

I have been saving money for moving and shipping some of my stuff. And I honestly want to save money to give to Victor to help get a new place. So I’ve been trying to find ways to make extra money.

I really wish my crafts would sell. That would help so much. If they’d sell, I could save that money for renting a place.

I also have books I want to sell. I was taking them to a local flea market to sell, but the woman is barely giving me anything for them.

I’m gonna keep looking for ways to make more money.

Hope you all have been well.

Missing Him And Texas

I went to see Victor for a week. I left on October 28th and came back November 4th. It was my first time ever taking an airplane and the take-off especially got me. Honestly, it scared me. I had a layover in Atlanta. And the airport there is huge.

It wasn’t so bad on the second plane. I was so excited when I finally got to San Antonio, Texas. Victor met me inside the airport.

I had such an amazing time there. Texas felt like home and I miss it. I miss Victor so much.

I wanted to update sooner and I’ll try to write a longer post soon about my time in Texas, but when I came back to Pennsylvania, I became seriously depressed. It has taken me all this time to shake it off. I’ve only started feeling better the past 2 or 3 days.

I just really miss him and I am not happy at all here in Pennsylvania. But I’ll write more about that in another post. Just wanted to write something quick and share a few pictures.


Me and Victor. You can see his cat, too. Haha 🙂


And this is the ring he gave me. It is to show his commitment to me.

I’ll do my best to write a longer post soon. Hope you all are doing well.

Still Here

I know it’s been a while since my last update. Things were pretty rough for a while after my dad passed away. The first three days were especially hard. I kept breaking down and crying. And not because my dad had died. We weren’t close. Didn’t have a good relationship. I guess I was mourning what I never had and that was he couldn’t be the father I needed.

And when he passed, no one called us. None of his supposed friends called us to see how we were doing or anything. They still haven’t. And it’s not because they don’t know. Right after my dad had passed, my whole town knew. It spread all over town very quickly my dad died. And the saddest thing is that no one cared. They still don’t. Or at least, they don’t care about my mom and me.

And I can definitely say this is a year of change. First with me and breaking up with Marc, getting with Victor and deciding to move to Texas. I have changed a lot this year and also, I have become myself again. I just couldn’t be myself with Marc although I didn’t realize it until after I broke up with him. But Victor noticed right away when we started talking again. He’s known me since I was 14. He knew how I was, but he noticed I wasn’t me anymore. But the more we talked, I started to become me again. And that’s because, with Victor, I have always been able to be myself. He’s always accepted me as I am.

Another change came with my dad passing away. Money-wise, things are still tough, but my mom is happier. I will say that my dad treated my mom horribly, but I won’t go into details. But at least she can finally live her life now.

And yet another change is that my mom’s friend Paula left her husband. Paula and her daughter are now living with us. And I’m honestly happy they are here. When I move to Texas in the Spring, I at least know my mom will have someone here with her.

Last month I booked my flight to Texas. I will be leaving on the 28th and I’ll be there until November 4th. It is only 12 days until I see Victor! I am so excited. It’ll be my first time taking a plane and traveling alone.

And now that I bought my plane ticket, I have begun saving for moving next year. I have been looking for the cheapest ways to move. Uhaul is expensive. So far, the cheapest thing I’ve found is to rent a minivan. But I think I will probably just end up flying there again and having my stuff shipped there.

I am just so excited to see Victor and I’m excited about moving too. More than anything, I want to be with Victor. He’s amazing and makes me happy. And I love him. He completely has my heart.

So I’m getting ready to move. I’ve been going through my stuff and getting rid of things. And believe it or not, I have actually gotten rid of a lot of books. I’m keeping ones I really want to read and ones by my favorite authors. I’ve gone through my clothes and some other stuff. I’ve got more things to go through, but I have done quite a bit already. The only furniture I’ll be taking is a few of my bookcases. I’m just gonna sell my TV, but I’ll be taking my stereo and guitar with me. Don’t want to get rid of those.

And I get more excited the closer the 28th gets. I’m a bit nervous about taking a plane and traveling by myself, but I’m sure I’ll be fine. I’ve already packed my luggage. And I’ll be bringing my camera to take pictures. I’ll share some pictures on here once I get home.

Sorry I haven’t really blogged. I’ve just been busy with preparing to move and my online work because of saving up for my plane ticket. But now, I’m saving for moving so I’m focusing on that.

I hope you all are doing well 🙂